sadness: fuck up

Last night was my biggest fuck up, I didn't mean to lie to you. At that moment, everything was so heated, I just wanted for the problem to be resolved. When you asked, I didn't even think twice for recall what happened, I just gave the answer which I thought would be favorable. I am at fault, what lying to you, for not guarding our secret fiercely enough. I know I am an asshole. I should have said the truth instead of anything else, and I should have respected your preference and paid more attention to it. I am sorry, not that it can change anything/anything can be done, but I just want to express my remorse.