It is tiring in Tekong, shouting to getting shouted at, rushing and waiting. Life of an recruit, it isn't just the physical tire but also the mental strain. Somedays, I just want to lay back, put all the schedules behind, maybe have a nice chat with someone special, someone that is able to take away the realities of army, even if it is just temporary, someone who makes me feel like a civilian again, someone who will make me feel loved.
So in the army, we march everywhere, as long as a group of us is moving from one point to another, we have to march there. The other day, amidst the monotony of marching, I was thinking about my life now, my life as a recruit.
It suddenly hit me on how fortunate Simon was. He had someone special to stand by him during this phase of life, even more so fortunate because you were that special person. You went down all the way to Pasir Ris to see him the moment he book out. That must be such a wonderful feeling, to have someone special, be it a girlfriend, or a lover, to see you after a week of physical and mental strain. I am envious of him, and also so angry. He didn't know how fortunate he was, he didn't cherish you, he didn't treated you the way you deserved to be, and you deserve the best. On top of all that, he broke all promises, made you cry, and didn't even had the courage to give you closure. The irony that he even went to command school. He doesn't deserve you, you are wonderful and beautiful and special and you deserve someone so much better.
