sadness: lost.

I want to overcome our problem badly, you are special to me, never doubt that, and we are running out of time, I am getting anxious, because I want to love you wholly. 

My friends and I hardly meet up, even though we do, it would be late at night, just to lepak, it is almost impossible to catch them for dinner, because they are just so caught up with their lives…. and speaking of initiative, I did ask them out for a outing such as paintball were we could bring and introduce people, I've never met their partners before, and I didn't want our relationships to cause our friendship to distant, and I wanted to introduce you to them. But all they did was to shrug the idea off. Anyways I know meeting would not be very advisable now, and I am to blame, because I have let you down, by not keeping the nature of our relationship a secret. I understand your ire at me, and I know that little can be done about the situation. I'm lost for what to say, or what to do, and I am feeling extremely miserable about it, because I know it is not okay. Your silence is deafening, your stares are piercing.
Please know that I want to resolve this problem, and I will put all my effort in trying to resolve this.

thank you

Thank you for today, not just for the badminton game, but also for rubbing against my back while I play Uno, for putting your hand around my shoulder, for sharing an Ice cream with me, for telling me "I adore you"

sadness: fuck up

Last night was my biggest fuck up, I didn't mean to lie to you. At that moment, everything was so heated, I just wanted for the problem to be resolved. When you asked, I didn't even think twice for recall what happened, I just gave the answer which I thought would be favorable. I am at fault, what lying to you, for not guarding our secret fiercely enough. I know I am an asshole. I should have said the truth instead of anything else, and I should have respected your preference and paid more attention to it. I am sorry, not that it can change anything/anything can be done, but I just want to express my remorse.

goodbye altis.

I proceeded to pull your panties off, revealing your privates, already moist. I couldn't resist, and buried my tongue between your labia. Your juice, salty yet sweet. Your breathing grew heavier as I wriggled my tongue inside you. Seeing you enjoying so much pleasure, I decided that it was my turn. Already half naked from the amazing blowjob earlier, I positioned my penis below your clit. As much as I tried to resist the urge to bury my throbbing cock inside you hastily, the hormones raged furiously inside me. "ohm my godddd, urghhhhhh" you groaned as I gyrated against your clit. Matching the movement with your breathing, it wasn't long before you hit an orgasm. I felt your body shiver in sheer pleasure, and your vagina tightening around my penis, before you fell limp. I pulled out and sat contented with my achievement, looking at you endearingly. But instead of catching a breather, you straddled me and began gyrating your clitoris against my still erect penis. The fire of lust burned strongly and you hit another orgasm peak. "urghhhh, urghhh, ahhhh" you exclaimed as you grinded me. I was over the edge already, but somehow, I still had not ejaculated. Before the situation reached to the point of no return, I quickly pulled out a condom and rolled it onto my penis. This time, you positioned my penis between your labia, and slowly, you lowered yourself onto me. You hugged me while sitting on me, my head close to your chest. You began bouncing on lap, and I encouraged that, pushing myself deeper whenever our crouch met. The air was thick and our moans got louder, it wasn't long before I reached the point of no return. I felt my cock throbbing wildly inside you, with all the pent up lust released, my energy dropped down. However, you were not finished, even after I stopped, you continued fuck me hard, you felt the third peak accenting. "hmmmurgh uhh" you moaned as you collapsed onto me. We sat there, both of us panting heavily, both sweaty from the humid air, both of us extremely satisfied with the night. God damn you are just so darn sexy. This day will be remembered as the most number of times you climaxed in one session.

This is probably the most intimate memory (maybe a lil delusional) I have with my car, thank you for making me look cool, for making my life so much more convenient, for keeping me safe, goodbye altis.

im not afraid of Heights!

In your skin tight crop top, and floral flared skirt, you took Umaa by the hands and skipped happily towards the ice cream stall, cutting in front of the crowd. Occasionally, you would look back at me with a glint of adornment in your eyes.  The crowd was loud, but at that moment, in my head, it was silent. Everyone was moving around, but we were frozen, I was lost in your eyes. It was then that I felt blissful, to see you so ecstatic, it gave me genuine happiness.